I am sad.
I am not asking for sympathy.
I am not trying to be negative.
I am just sad, I just wanna go under and never resurface again.
I am sad, I wanna die.
I have been and wanna for nearly 10 years now.
And that is a fact.
Thank you, Lord, for my Baby Boy. He is the only reason keeping me here because I know he needs me. He is my world, my universe, my saving grace, eversince You blessed me with him.
But that does not keep me from being sad. It just keeps me from completely losing it...
From totally calling it quits.
And I guess I wrote it here and not on facebook because nobody comes here, and no one will understand there. Well, probably some, but I am sure, that all I will get is disbelief, maybe words that I don't need right now, and will probably cause discouragement to people.
So, I am destined to suffer it alone. Yes, Jesus is there, and I am supposed to be comforted in that, but right now, there is nothing here nor there...
..all this in the middle of working on God's Word...
Depression is an illness.
All I can do is keep moving forward, keep looking ahead, just keep going.
One day at a time...
mY Synapses...
I am not asking for sympathy.
I am not trying to be negative.
I am just sad, I just wanna go under and never resurface again.
I am sad, I wanna die.
I have been and wanna for nearly 10 years now.
And that is a fact.
Thank you, Lord, for my Baby Boy. He is the only reason keeping me here because I know he needs me. He is my world, my universe, my saving grace, eversince You blessed me with him.
But that does not keep me from being sad. It just keeps me from completely losing it...
From totally calling it quits.
And I guess I wrote it here and not on facebook because nobody comes here, and no one will understand there. Well, probably some, but I am sure, that all I will get is disbelief, maybe words that I don't need right now, and will probably cause discouragement to people.
So, I am destined to suffer it alone. Yes, Jesus is there, and I am supposed to be comforted in that, but right now, there is nothing here nor there...
..all this in the middle of working on God's Word...
Depression is an illness.
All I can do is keep moving forward, keep looking ahead, just keep going.
One day at a time...
mY Synapses...
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