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Interesting observations

I was blog hopping a while ago and came across this entry by a friend. I think it's a great post and a must read. Click here to read about faulty assumptions about foreigners from the point of view of another foreigner. :)

DAY OF MISSING YOU MUCH

To My Unborn:
I had the weirdest dream last night as I lay in bed with the storm raging outside my window.It was a dream about us, so wherever in heaven you are, this is for you.
In my dream, your dad and I was walking some distance from the seaside of some exotic island.There were all kinds of shapes dancing in the sand as the leaves of the towering coconut trees sway with the wind.I can feel the warmth of the sun blazing hot from the heavens but it was toned down by the gentle breeze that comes with the splashes of waves as they embrace the rocks nearby.Your dad was holding my hand as we walk.As he held my hand, I can feel him tracing little circles on my palm sending little bits of lightning down and up my spine.Suddenly he stopped and took both of my hands in his and turned me to face him.We are out on the beach now and so I can just feel the hot rays of the sun like little ants biting the skin on my face.
Like the scenes in a movie the next scene in my dream was a picture of perfect…

Eric Clapton - Tears in Heaven (City of Angels)

For some reason (which I don't want to ponder too deep, at least for now), this song by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings keeps playing in my head, and after a few moments, brings tears to my eyes. Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

UNMADE IN 2008

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As most of you know, I announced here one-entry ago that after nearly four years of waiting, I finally was going to be a mother. Now I have to unannounce it. Four days ago, I suffered from the most terrible abdominal pain I've ever felt in my life and before passing out, I instructed my husband to clean me up, change my clothes and rush me to the hospital.

I regained consciousness in the ER of the local hospital. I was lying on a bed writhing in pain with my husband standing beside my bed trying to get attention from any of the hospital personnel who told him to carry me to a bed then forgot that I am there. I learned later from B that we came to the hospital at 12:30PM but it was already at 1:45 when a nurse came to check my BP. Half an hour afterwards, a Dr. came to tell me that I seem to be suffering from hypogastric pain (duh!) typical of menstrual cramps. I told her I'm sure it is not PMS because I'm pregnant and she might want to check and see if it is not ruptu…

MADE IN 2007

I guess I am the only one who has yet to update her blog. The thing is, I spent the last two days of 2007 and the first six days of 2008 in bed because of unexplainable feeling of tiredness and soreness everywhere. I was having delusional thoughts of having an undiagnosed terminal illness. Hahaha! People at the compound where I live got curious as to why they haven't seen me come out of my cave for days. So my mom decided to visit me. I described to her how I feel and she said, "well, maybe you are pregnant!" Duh!!! (I didn't think about that one!)

I forced myself to get up the next day and bought a pregtest kit. The next morning I tested myself and it came out positive. Of course I prepared myself for a negative result. Who wants a big disappointment, anyway? Even my husband won't believe it. He keeps asking me if the test is reliable. There is only one other way to find out. So to make the story short, the doctor said to take it easy because the co…