MARGIENARY

My breath you gave me back Snatched me up from the quicksand of death My love of life were leaves in autumn Waiting for the winter’s night to take me home.   Yet You’re the sand in the seashore that tickles my toes You are the whites and the reds of the rose Your love caused my soul to hibernate When it’s all ready to shutdown and crash.   You set up a home deep in my heart So I can live again on a new start You are the flame that lights my path A love offering in the altar of my heart. (The Lord is using journal entries and amateur poetries that I wrote for other people or some other ocassions years ago to remind me and make me feel His love in these difficult times.  It also happened that I am finalizing my translation of the book of Lamentations and I couldn't help but be ministered to by these following lines. Lamentations 3 19 No nêmnêmên koday ligat ko, tan kaandin kuston pantaloan ko, ingah niman hota kal-it ni lêta ono apgo, i nak katamt...

Barren hills of sadness and pain Mountains of emptiness and rain Amidst it all the sun hasn’t shone. Alas, my heart, cease your cryin' Soon, a flow’r will bloom in the rain. Run, my heart! No home for you here Sing your sad song, cry your bitter tear Gales of sorrow in this sea of horror All around you, darkness and terror... but pray, In the night, a moon shall be born. Mourn, oh heart! Death is at the door End of the pain and crosses you bore All is gone now, love’s not your own Love lost, loneliness won. but... beyond the horizon, the sun is shining the tears will end the heart will mend... soon.....

I was blog hopping a while ago and came across this entry by a friend. I think it's a great post and a must read. Click here to read about faulty assumptions about foreigners from the point of view of another foreigner. :)

To My Unborn: I had the weirdest dream last night as I lay in bed with the storm raging outside my window. It was a dream about us, so wherever in heaven you are, this is for you. In my dream, your dad and I was walking some distance from the seaside of some exotic island. There were all kinds of shapes dancing in the sand as the leaves of the towering coconut trees sway with the wind. I can feel the warmth of the sun blazing hot from the heavens but it was toned down by the gentle breeze that comes with the splashes of waves as they embrace the rocks nearby. Your dad was holding my hand as we walk. As he held my hand, I can feel him tracing little circles on my palm sending little bits of lightning down and up my spine. Suddenly he stopped and took both of my hands in his and turned me to face him. We are out on the beach now and so I can just feel the hot rays of the sun like little ants biting the skin on my face. Like the scenes in a movie the next scene in my dr...

To My Unborn: I had the weirdest dream last night as I lay in bed with the storm raging outside my window. It was a dream about us, so wherever in heaven you are, this is for you. In my dream, your dad and I was walking some distance from the seaside of some exotic island. There were all kinds of shapes dancing in the sand as the leaves of the towering coconut trees sway with the wind. I can feel the warmth of the sun blazing hot from the heavens but it was toned down by the gentle breeze that comes with the splashes of waves as they embrace the rocks nearby. Your dad was holding my hand as we walk. As he held my hand, I can feel him tracing little circles on my palm sending little bits of lightning down and up my spine. Suddenly he stopped and took both of my hands in his and turned me to face him. We are out on the beach now and so I can just feel the hot rays of the sun like little ants biting the skin on my face. Like the scenes in a movie th...

Dear Praying Ones, I thought I'd let you know that I am feeling a little bit better today than yesterday.  This is my 7th day since the surgery and I thank and praise God for His grace and mercy and protection.   I was able to finish three chapters of Ecclesiastes since I got home.  Sarah and I tried to check Norman's 1Kings 1 two days ago but when Sarah started reading the first few verses, she burst into a contagious laughter that made me laugh so hard I think I injured my wound a little cuz it hurt so bad the whole day so I spent the day in bed with a thick blanket. 1Kings 1:1, 2 1 Naama law ni peteg hi Dabid isunga kamakeketel ni anggan gagtapen dan mehdel ni gatap. 2 Isunga hotada bagaan to, kan dan hi-gato ay, “Itolok mon maniwang kamin madikit ni ag nakotkoti ni mangitibew ni hi-gam. Makide-leg ni hi-gam hiyay paatong toka.” For some reason, Sara find that very funny!  I received an email yesterday that says, "We are thankful to the Lord for ...

For some reason (which I don't want to ponder too deep, at least for now), this song by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings keeps playing in my head, and after a few moments, brings tears to my eyes. Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven? Would it be the same If I saw you in heaven? I must be strong And carry on, 'Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven. Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven? Would you help me stand If I saw you in heaven? I'll find my way Through night and day, 'Cause I know I just can't stay Here in heaven. Time can bring you down, Time can bend your knees. Time can break your heart, Have you begging please, begging please. Beyond the door, There's peace I'm sure, And I know there'll be no more Tears in heaven. Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven? Would it be the same If I saw you in heaven? I must be strong And carry on, 'Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven.

As most of you know, I announced here two entries ago that after nearly four years of waiting, I finally was going to be a mother.  Now I have to unannounce it.  Four days ago, I suffered from the most terrible abdominal pain I've ever felt in my life and before passing out, I instructed my husband to clean me up, change my clothes and rush me to the hospital.   I regained consciousness in the ER of the local hospital.  I was lying on a bed writhing in pain with my husband standing beside my bed trying to get attention from any of the hospital personnel who told him to carry me to a bed then forgot that I am there.  I learned later from B that we came to the hospital at 12:30PM but it was already at 1:45 when a nurse came to check my BP. Half an hour afterwards, a Dr. came to tell me that I seem to be suffering from hypogastric pain (duh!) typical of menstrual cramps.  I told her I'm sure it is not PMS because I'm pregnant and she might want to che...

As most of you know, I announced here one-entry ago that after nearly four years of waiting, I finally was going to be a mother. Now I have to unannounce it. Four days ago, I suffered from the most terrible abdominal pain I've ever felt in my life and before passing out, I instructed my husband to clean me up, change my clothes and rush me to the hospital. I regained consciousness in the ER of the local hospital. I was lying on a bed writhing in pain with my husband standing beside my bed trying to get attention from any of the hospital personnel who told him to carry me to a bed then forgot that I am there. I learned later from B that we came to the hospital at 12:30PM but it was already at 1:45 when a nurse came to check my BP. Half an hour afterwards, a Dr. came to tell me that I seem to be suffering from hypogastric pain (duh!) typical of menstrual cramps. I told her I'm sure it is not PMS because I'm pregnant and she might want to check and see if it is not ruptu...

A very touching story that I got in the email.  I thought I'd share it... A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its hiding place in the closet. She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes. Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door. She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention, but he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could muster. No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on the glass counter. That did it! 'And what do you want?' the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice. I'm talking to my brother from Chicago who...

These are pictures forwarded to me via email. I do not claim any rights to these pix. Just wanna share the beauty of it and the genius of all the people who made them.

I guess I am the only one who has yet to update her blog.  The thing is, I spent the last two days of 2007 and the first six days of 2008 in bed because of unexplainable feeling of tiredness and soreness everywhere.  I was having delusional thoughts of having an undiagnosed terminal illness. Hahaha!  People at the compound where I live got curious as to why they haven't seen me come out of my cave for days.  So my mom decided to visit me.  I described to her how I feel and she said, "well, maybe you are pregnant!"  Duh!!!  (I didn't think about that one!) I forced myself to get up the next day and bought a pregtest kit.  The next morning I tested myself and it came out positive.  Of course I prepared myself for a negative result.  Who wants a big disappointment, anyway?  Even my husband won't believe it.  He keeps asking me if the test is reliable.  There is only one other way to find out.  So to make the story...

I guess I am the only one who has yet to update her blog. The thing is, I spent the last two days of 2007 and the first six days of 2008 in bed because of unexplainable feeling of tiredness and soreness everywhere. I was having delusional thoughts of having an undiagnosed terminal illness. Hahaha! People at the compound where I live got curious as to why they haven't seen me come out of my cave for days. So my mom decided to visit me. I described to her how I feel and she said, "well, maybe you are pregnant!" Duh!!! (I didn't think about that one!) I forced myself to get up the next day and bought a pregtest kit. The next morning I tested myself and it came out positive. Of course I prepared myself for a negative result. Who wants a big disappointment, anyway? Even my husband won't believe it. He keeps asking me if the test is reliable. There is only one other way to find out. So to make the story short, the doctor said to take it easy because the co...