...the honesty of the night...

I am beat, I am powerless
I have to remain here at the mercy of this pain
To lie here until it is done with me,
Months of living a half-life if at all
I lie on my back, a nobody with a future so unsure
Weakened, in body, spirit and soul
So afraid of what tomorrow will bring.
I cannot feel the beat of my own heart
All I see is this hellish nightmare
That is my suffering
So welcome to hell, Margie
The world is going on out there happily without you!
I am failing to see the wonder of a moment
To hear the humor in a joke
To perceive the joy in a laughter
To see innocent mischief in a smile
To be sure of the silver lining in a cloud
Oh, when did I start losing sight?

Don’t hide me in the cleft of a rock
Please show me your face or just cover my eyes
Or you might as well leave me right here, if you’ll hide your face from me.

Mend this mind that’s been flayed beyond repair
Make my heart understand that you were never unfair.

mY Synapses...