MARGIENARY

At the risk of sounding to read too much into my circumstances of the past week or years, I feel that the enemy is really trying his best to distract me from equipping myself to become a competent translation consultant or just to become a good Christian. Two years ago, when I was supposed to participate in a TCDW, I almost died due to internal hemorrhaging and then a surgery that went bad.  So the Lord directed me to use my time to get biblical training in the seminary but again I nearly died due to sepsis (blood infection) and typhoid fever.   Early this year, a loved one's disobedience to the Lord almost derailed me and made me asked myself if I am even qualified to be trained to become a Scripture consultant when I cannot even keep a member of my team on the right tract.   This past week, while in the middle of the training, my only grandfather died.  That was both a good and a sad thing.  It is good because his suffering has stopped but losing someone in th...

1. Wake Up !! Decide to have a good day. 'Today is the day the Lord hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it' Psalms 118:24 2. Dress Up !! The best way to dress up is to put on a smile. A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. 'The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at outward appearance; but the Lord looks at the heart.' I Samuel 16:7 3 Shut Up!! Say nice things and learn to listen. God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking. 'He who guards his lips guards his soul.' Proverbs 13:3 4. Stand Up!!... For what you believe in. Stand for something or you will fall for anything.. 'Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good...' Galatians 6:9-10 5. Look Up !!... To the Lord. 'I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me....

Yesterday, I was hanging some sheets on the clothesline when I saw a couple of orange lilies peeping through a blanket of dry pine needles and pineapple leaves.  I went and picked three of them giving me six glorious orangeness.   I found a little vase for them and put them on my dining table, admiring them as I did my chores.  I was gonna leave the orange beauties on my dining table but I changed my mind.  I took the vase with the flowers with me when we left the house and they're now sitting on top of my kitchen worktable.  The petals looked perfect and they seemed to be telling me that this is just another quite and peaceful day--no mind-boggling puzzles to solve, no heartbreaking situations to face.  I was quite wrong because today, I felt so useless... at least to my grandfather.  When we went up our village last Friday, my younger brother told me that my sick grandfather wanted me to go to him and pull a tooth that has been giving...

B and I just got ourselves a new house.  The house is not new, but it is new to us and I totally adore it.  Comes May, B & I would be together for six years already and I plan to spend as much time of that month in our new home.  These past five years, we have been dwelling in a very comfortable house that was lent to us--one that I also love and enjoy, yet it still feels weird to have a nice house of our own.  Last night, we went and slept there for the first time and I felt like I was in a dream.  The house was nothing fancy but it is my house; and yesterday, when I first opened the door, my mind went high-speed in excitement at how B and I would decorate it, what stuff to put on the walls, the cabinets, the shelves, and what colors to hang in the windows, etc. The house is indeed a blessing.  I was looking at a picture in my brother's house and it was a picture of him and his friends atop a hill overlooking a very nice view of mountains and pine tree...

It was so great of God to have had given me the chance to watch the lives of four people who truly love serving Him.  In the eyes of men, there is nothing to be gained in giving oneself to serve others the way these people have.

THANKS Life is not so unkind after all When you’ve gone away Everything for me was just A blurry perspective. After ours had fallen apart There was no getting over you You’ve torn my heart into shreds ‘til I found out there is life after you. Thanks for breaking my heart Thanks for betraying my trust Thanks for pushing me out of your way I never have found him If not for all that you did to me. Now that I’m up and about Here’s a love worth living for You may not believe this But I love him more than I ever loved you before. (Another song that was a lie at the time it was written. It only came true four years later.)

Here i am again Wond’ring about everything Did i really left Or just been here all along Dreamin’ about you. But here i am still Wide awake and thinkin’ about you Pretending that everything’s goin’ fine As the sun rises from the east I will do fine. I know you’ve made up your mind And i’m sure you’re not coming back When we broke each other’s heart Destiny has planned it From now on We will always be apart. Wherever you are In case you’re thinking about me Always remember The love we have shared It was in the past but still in memory. Ironheart/Christmas’97 (This is a song I co-wrote with a friend of mine. I wrote the lines after I accepted the fact that what R&I had was irrevocably over. But when my musician friend read it, he wrote a music.)